This is sort of about adoption, but it's also about all the other lives I see thrown away every day...


She matters.
Though she’s torn on the edges,
and folds down low,
groping for words,
like a child who has fallen off a swing
looking for the breath
that will not come.

He waits -
with more potential
than the handful of seeds I
planted in the black, soft garden soil.
Seeds three years dormant,
that grew inside a fruit
grown by my grandfather.

Those seeds rose with green hands
waving toward the sky.
A gospel choir
celebrating life.
Life that began in darkness
and overcame it.

Each day a new swarm of faces
Shifts and blurs before my next step
like road signs passing by a car window.

Sometimes the memories
behind those faces have shaped their eyes
enough for me to translate.

Too often convention
restrains what rises -
that universal mother instinct
that runs onto the playground mulch,
awkward in sandals upon shifting earth -
drawn close to the pain,
to touch the hurt with you.

You forget that you matter.
Because Cruelty and Oversight
link hands around you
and taunt you singing:

“Worthless. Forgotten.
Damaged. Discarded.
Tomorrow will hate you
And Yesterday will haunt you.
As it was for you,
and as it is,
always it shall be.”

It’s a poison. And it’s a lie.

You matter.
Knit together by Intentionality -
Who calls us up through darkness
toward the light.

Two small hands,
then four,
then six -
born reaching into pain.
Learning to grow through it.
learning to walk
learning to be carried
toward the morning
of your new name.


About This Blog

Welcome to our family’s adoption journey. As you read, you will see us stumble and take wrong paths. You will see our hopes surge and fall. You will see the gaps in our humanity, and how our God realigns us to His purposes over and again. We think the messiness of this process is important. Sometimes walking with God isn’t a neat, linear package that can be summarized in bullet points. More often, life ebbs and flows around our plans, while God works His sovereign wonders from it all. We are learning so much through this journey. And we are super excited about our new son. If you’d like to join us, we’d love to have you along for the ride.

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